Hi..there is a part of us who is male too..he is a teenager and very abusive, and uses a knife to stab at things, under hypnosis I was brought out suddenly with the Therapist holding my arm down to the chair, he was very un-nerved, and that is when I was told I had an alter that was trying to kill some other part of self…this was after several severe attempts at killing myself at Churches, but what I have learned is that he is reliving a traumatic cycle, in order to survive the torturous existence he had to align himself with the abuser, and his behavior is stuck in this storm of existence, and is revisited due to triggers in the external enviroment, and my own internal stressors…he is a reflection of where he and the trauma is at..stuck in the nether region of dissociative time where he is living what he knows..I think the hardest thing for me to get thru is communicating with my system, and that, what is then is then and what is now is now…and who you are..at least that is what it has been for me, because I have had a dickens of a time convincing these broken egos that they are a part of me and not me apart of them..just kinda blows your rational self away, it still is a very hard disorder to except and understand, until the splitting occurs, until the voices and hallucinations..I am sorry cant go there..but

I totally agree, everyone’s survival mechanism is different, and unique to their circumstances as they endured the abuse and torture, because although our human schematics may be essentially the same..what makes us different and makes us survivors, is that our minds have adjusted the blue prints so we could be survivors…

Thanx for this thread Lisa…I am sorry you are enduring this torment..know that you are in my thoughts and in my prayers..and again this is just my perception and experiences, and by sharing them it was only meant to offer empathy and support..no one should have to live this kind of existence and not be heard, validated, and supported…your voice is so important..keep posting..