Hi regretful....Thanks for the input. First off, I'm glad you were able to visit your friend, and it sounds like that went okay? And as for that "other thing", I had a therapist who used to call depression the "evil trickster", and I think that's a fitting name for it. It has no rules, or heart, or logic....what a difficult demon to deal with . I think all we can do is take it moment by moment, but wow it's so hard to live this way. Good luck today ~ whimsygirl