I was just diagnosed with depression about two months ago even though I believe I had it for most of my life. I started going to see a counselor shortly after my roommates and I started to have many problems partly due to my depression but mostly because I mistakes I made. I lied to them and hurt their feelings. I also slammed doors and made them scared. Now, I am trying to make it up to them by going to counseling. It has been really hard though and I have begun to cut and think about death. I have reached out to talk to them, but they have ignored my apologizing and my trying to explain to them why I did what I did. They said that they wanted to be friends again in the future. But, they write hurtful things on facebook and other sites. What do I do? Are they worth it?