spirit0662,
You care of your daughter show in the steps you've taken to get her help. Please take some time while she's in hospital to care for yourself instead of spending so much time second guessing yourself. It sounds like you've been working on yourself and you can care for both of you by caring for yourself. It sounds like you're aware of your needs and you are open to finding ways you can support her. Please find someone you can talk with as you address all your own thoughts, feelings and concerns. Mini1