I'm sorry about both your wife, and your fathers sickness.

My father died of cancer 5 yrs ago this September 17. He was stubborn and refused to go to the doctor, and by the time he did, it was too late. He managed another 3 months before he passed. It was the longest 3 months of my life. When he did pass I was almost grateful because his pain was over. After all this time I was starting to cope better when my brother overdosed. Sometimes it happens that way I guess. It's not an easy thing to handle, and it feels like you take one or two steps forward only to take eight back.

One day at a time, as corny as that sounds. That's how I'm making it. Take care of yourself.