I am really suffering today. I had no sleep last night and little if any the night before. Having problems calming down. My fear is building back up and my breathing is labored. My trigger lately seems to be my son who is not doing well, have been sick for most of the vacation, still at my in laws which is not helping. We are schedule to leave tomorrow.

I really need some physical and mental rest. I am tempted to go back on Lorazepam. I really need some support my friends. This seems the only place I can get it.