HI,
I happened upon your post, and you sound so sad. We all have days like that, some more than others. I saw this piece on the news about self esteem and depression, (I actually ordered it for my daughter. )The web site is www.connectwithkids.com. The title was ,I think "Self Esteem" They let you see a preview of it first then you can order if you want. I hope this helps a little!