Thank you all for your great advice. We got back home around midnight. the ride there was much more difficult. But help from everyone on here worked well. A few times i would start to dissociate but used the grounding i know and it helped. Colored with my daughter, got a couple of coloring books with activities. And i kept telling myself everything would be ok. I prayed at the beginning and just put all my nerves into my faith and made it there with no real incidents. I had to fight a few panic attacks but we made it. On the way back my mind was mostly focused on my baby. She had another 6 hour drive with her dad and they put her in the seat by the window and their son in the middle. I keep her in the middle for all car rides as its the safest so all of my worry went into her. And saddness that she was leaving for four weeks. I had a few times i would become afraid and start to panic but no dissociation on the way back. There was a line of semi trucks flying past us tail gating eachother, my fiance was already going 10 under because it was raining, but they had to have been going 90, when they passed us i told him to let off and get distance from them. Good thing because about 20 miles down the road the semis were in the ditch, had spun out and hit each other.
It helped that he was driving so well. Im glad i faced my fear to an extent, im still afraid but not as bad as before the trip. 48 hours before leaving i was having panic attacks. Now the thought just makes me un easy. All of your help really did wonders for my anxiery, thank you. And thank you open eyes for checking. Im sorry you were in an accident as well. They really are frightening. Thank you for your concerns