Your reactions sound like what I just read in the Inner Child Work chapter of the book The Emotionally Absent Mother. "Just as a child who has been hurt or abandoned too many times by mother will not open his arms to her, the inner child may react similarly." This chapter struck me because it stated, how can I nurture others when I feel so empty, when I don't have enough for myself? So it sounds like you are really in touch with your feelings and able to express them to your T - well done, sawe!