hi squiggle,
its weird how the T relationship sneaks up on you isnt it. its such a crazy dynamic. it has definitely thrown me for a loop. its such a profound one for us as clients. its an extremely important part of our life....or atleas that is what it has become to me. its hard to wrap my head around it sometimes.

"how has this person that i dont know and that i only see for 45min a week become so important to me?" and when did it become ok for them to take up so much headspace?

as far as the wanting to know more......i think its a fine line. the more you know the better you feel you know them and they dont feel so much like a T.....they feel like a friend, which has made me feel more comfortable over time. i dont feel like im talking to a stranger.

on the flip side, i think it can be distracting. as i get into harder deeper issues i feel like i need to be able to just walk in and focus on me instead of worrying so much about her. we click so well and i know enough about her family that i can easily spend 10-15minutes making small talk and distracting myself away from what i really need to talk about. a good example of the distraction is i knew she was going to be gone a week but last week she told me it was a family vacation with her whole family and where they were going and blah blah blah....which was ok, but at the same time it made me really sad because my family life feels like such a disaster right now and instead of focusing on that i get all wrapped up in how i will never have what she has....a family vacation with my whole family where we love each other and want to be around each other like that....im just rambling now....but point being i think self disclosure is starting to be a hinderance more than a help...