((dub phantom))),

Oh dear, I am so sorry that you have this loss and how "you" were the one that discovered your soul mate like this. That is a very tramatic experience. And no, we do not get over something like that in a way were we can ever forget it. Ofcourse you miss her all the time, that would be normal as well. And an OD like that doesn't mean that the person was purposely trying to harm themselves, it could just mean they were looking for a high and just took too much of something. And when that happens it is also very upsetting because often people do not truely realize the dangers that come with experimenting with drug use.

Have you gotten counceling for this loss? It is important to share your feelings and have help with this grief. It doesn't make the loss go away but it does help you slowly learn to finally accept it and think about rebuilding your life.

What you did learn from this young lady is that there are people in this world that can touch your heart in ways you may never expect. You learned how to have a relationship and grow close with someone, that is something about your time with her that will always be there as well.

One of the questions you should ask yourself is if the tables had been turned and it was you that OD'd and she had found you, if you could reach from beyond what would you tell her to do? My guess is that you would want her to live out her life and reach for her goals and even find love again someday. You would tell her that life is short and to make the most of her time in life and do her best to discover herself and enjoy her life. And if she could speak to you now, I am sure that is what she would say, in fact, that is probably what she was always saying to you from the time she came knocking on your door.

Well, I am sure that you could find your way to honor what she did for you, and do your best to continue on and even someday knocking on some other young lady's door that may also join you in your time in "life". While there will no one that will be like this friend you did have and lost, there ARE young ladies out there that can also share with you in special ways as well.

The best way we can honor someone that has spent their time in life with us and given love to us is to take that and use it to continue on for as long as we have time to do so. Because if someone did love us, that is really what they would want for us.
Please remember the good that you both shared and do your best not to just keep focusing on the loss. However, to grieve is normal and the length of time we do that is different for everyone. And no, we do not forget those that we have lost.

((Hugs))
Open Eyes