Dreamer, I'm going to be direct here and please don't be offended by what I am about to say.

I know all about being pushed too far, feeling like you're losing it and wanting it all to end. I am in NO WAY advocating this, and I admit it was not what I had wanted to do; however, I found myself being resusicitated yesterday in an ambulance, forced to drink charcoal, and an over night stay in the Psych ward.

This is my second time. The first time I deliberately wanted to die - this time I have no clue what happened or why, it just did. That scared me even more. I've been on the edge for quite awhile and just kept letting the crap pile up until I collapsed.

Stop cutting, stop feeling bad for your life, go get help. Cutting does nothing long term, and whining is simply pointless - after awhile no one reads the posts.

You have lived thus far, you have the strength to change your life. I am no example of someone wonderful or someone who is making it.........if anything, I am the example of what NOT to be.

This time was an accident, it was unconscious, which makes it even more scary. I won't survive another one. Don't let that be you.

If I've offended anyone, I'm sorry. Just say that I'm a little raw around the edges today.

Mary Alice

P.S. I may not have a job anymore either since they happened right outside the place.