My T, thinks that anxiety is the best way to describe many of my difficulties, although I have no formal diagnosis.

I wasn't so sure that I agreed with him as this is the way I have always felt pretty much. However currently I know that my anxiety is really high and not only am I struggling with memory, but I can also feel a little...well paranoid I guess.

Yesterday I was having a bath mid morning (had woken really early at 5am and had then just pottered about the house doing stuff and lost track of time).

While in the bath I heard a knock at the door, at first I thought it was my kids being brought back by their dad and expected to hear their voices, but it wasn't them. So I thought it was a neighbour or friend and carried on with my bath. Then my phone rang which made me think it must be important, I started to think it must therefore be someone official coming to tell me that I had done something awful and would be in touble.

I was really scared and stayed in the bath.

When I finally went downstairs, I saw a note in my letter box telling me that my grocery delivery driver had tried to deliver my food that I had ordered!!! Of couse I had made the order the day before and that was the time I had booked for it to be delivered. I felt so stupid and also shocked that I could forget that I made the order.

My memory has been poor for a while now, but I haven't had these episodes of suspiciousness before and just wondered whether anyone else who suffers from anxiety can relate to this. I am terrifed of telling my T in case.... - hmm see that suspiciousness again.