Well, I'm not one to take credit-- don't think it was bravery ..... but I will say-- it helped in my case having PPD (paranoid personality disorder)-- as I became very stubborn and figured therapists were just full of it --!!! I struggled horribly on my own for three years, then had a bad "mental crash", which lead me to my current therapist.

I certainly hope you don't have the struggle or "crash"---- I'm hoping you will post here, or reach out to family or a friend if you are struggling, until you find that "good fit" of a therapist.

I admire so many here-- like you-- that can communicate their lows and highs and get the support they should.
I may have said this before--- I'm too private for my own good!

Anyway, I think it's good that you posted--- keep reaching out and keep us updated too-- OK!