Zilch... oh, but you're so much more!! I can tell by the way you write. You're very intelligent and have the world at your feet! I can tell through your spelling and the way you put your words together! That excites me because I'm a "word lover."

IF! Emphasis on the "if", you can't get to a therapist, your first step would be to get yourself a highschool diploma OR a certificate. If you're this good with words, I'm sure you could pass the test for the equivalent of a diploma! It might even be possible to do it from home, but I'm not sure.

What is your living situation? There has to be a way to get you to see a therapist, if for nothing else than to get you on some anxiety medication. That might relieve your anxiety if not the social aspect of it. That you would have to work on baby step by baby step. But Goodness, Zilch! Your whole life is ahead of you!! Take the mistakes and wrong choices you've made so far and LEARN from them. Make them your lessons on LIFE... what NOT to do next time!

You have any and all options still wide open to you! All you need is some encouragement and a guiding hand(s)!! Read my post on "Open the door!"