(((Rose))),

Ugh, sometimes that can happen with PTSD, I have caught myself that way as well, and then felt bad that I got so angry and upset. But the good thing that happened Rose is that you noticed it. After you calmed down you noticed it, very good because that is the beginning of working on controling it better. I have had that happen here in PC as well as with my husband. If someone touches a weak/sore spot in me, I can get real angry and quickly. Once you start to notice that can happen you have to really try to work at it and know it can happen. I would have a hard time because the anger would just burst out before I actually got to think first, I was so surprised at that. It IS a part of the PTSD and some people get full blown white outs where rage just comes forward and they act and cannot control it. Working on knowing it is there is important to making progress with it.

And ofcourse that strong desire to RUN, to be so angry or triggered that that "flight" instinct just comes on very strong. I have had that happen to me in PC a few times and I let myself calm down before taking action and made the decision that I would work on it, and through it. It was really good for me to do that. Hey, it is a lot of brain work sometimes with PTSD. But please do not be hard on yourself, it was great that you calmed down and saw it the way you did. That IS progress, even if you feel bad now, you noticed it.

Hey, every person can lose their temper. So don't let this get you down, you are making progress and that is what you have to keep your focus on.

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes