Hey Lexicon, i understand the hurt you're going through. I had a friend like that, we were best friends since we were 7, all through primary and secondary school whatever happened we stuck by each other. I loved her so it didn't matter to me that she made me feel like i wasn't worth anything, that she didn't value my opinion, that she made fun of me because she could be generous and funny and loving at times too. Then a few months ago after leaving school she stopped phoning me, stopped wanting to meet up etc. I knew we had grown apart slightly but i wasn't expecting a complete blank from her. I still don't understand what happened, what i did, why she felt i couldn't be her friend anymore. She hurt me so much because i loved her despite everything. I still wonder how she could just walk away from all the years we were friends without even a goodbye. And the stupid thing is that even with all that has happened between us i still love her, i still want her to succeed, i still want to be there for her. So it hurts when she doesn't want me.
I think if i understand why she treated me so bad i will be able to walk away myself but until then there are too many questions unanswered. Maybe there are questions you need to have answered too?
Abby