I'm sorry that you feel so guilty. You could not have changed it honey. If they hadn't done the surgry the blockage would have taken a toll too. I can't even pretend to know your loss, but I know guilt over the loss of a loved one. I strugggle everyday with it. I know deep down I could not have saved my brother, but my heart feels differently.

One day at a time. That's how I cope, and I try to stay busy. If I can help at all just let me know.