I am feeling really confused in therapy right now. Not the usual confusion about memories, what is real what is not real or what feelings I'm feeling. This is real cognitive confusion. I'm beginning to wonder if there is something wrong with me. I don't understand much of what T is saying, always asking him to explain things to me. I feel like I say something and he responds with something completely off topic, like two different conversations are going on. Then I leave and am totally f***ed up until next session. I do dissociate, but I don't think that is what is happening, that is a different feeling. I've been with T for 4 years, several times a week, so it isn't that we don't know each other and how to communicate with each other. I talked about it last session but nothing got resolved and it happened again today. Is it him or me or?? Anyone have any experience with this? To make matters worse he is going on vacation so I am left with this, plus all the other crap that happens when he leaves. Will I ever be able to cope with these absences?