I can relate to this. I have a distinct outer and inner world. I have learned enough about social interactions to keep up appearances. But it is all a lie. But I choose to keep this up. I am married an I have a job. At both I always have my facade up. I don't know about your inner world, but sharing mine is just not an option. I have accepted this. I write a blog about my social interactions. Because of the social anhedonia and lack of empathy I have to keep up appearances. It is next to impossible to be honest about a lack of empathy. But at times is also has advantages. thesecretschizoid.wordpress.com