Thanks so much ((((All))))
When I reflected further, I realized it is when I feel my safety has been compromised and/or I am not being heard (when it is important to me) that I get so upset.
I try to stay calm and communicate properly but when the person persists and clearly is ignoring me or not listening or steam rolling me that is when I get really triggered. And as ((((OE)))) mentioned I just want to run!
Well thankfully with the help and support of you good folks, I have the opportunity to be heard and find new ways to manage things better!
I will do better next time