All I ever am is just caught up in my emotions, normally these are frustrated, fed up, sad, upset, miserable, scared, worried, guilty and just very low and draining.

How do you ever overcome these with anxiety and knowing that really you have good reasons to feels all those things and they are right for you to feel.

I have an interview with a college to return to college this year. However I know a person who has just gone back here and lets just say it was one of those situations it's best if we never see one another again for both of us or you dread bumping into them.

Thats not my only issue... with college it will be the same as everything else so far and I am worried that I will have a really bad effect on the other in the classes and be that one person that spoils it for everyone else.

Then I am unemployed..... if I stay way I really don't want to have to feel or know what the outcome of that would be... I feel worse enough as it is at the moment... however there is not much chance for this to change....

Although the college courses won't directly help with employment but they may help me get back to feeling better and be more productive so I can then work part time and build myself back up.

However I feel is so miserable and crying all most of the day and I feel just ill..... not actually ill but the ill you feel from being run down by anxiety it still so real though.

I am just going to mess this up and cause more problems but I can't just end my living so this seems the only right way to go about things for myself. However this puts more pressure on and the anxiety worsen.

ARRR this cycle I keep going on about just gets worse and worse....

How do you stop this and stop judging yourself so you can give yourself a fair chance with the things that will help instead of being one mistake after another.