I wish to Thank everyone for your welcoming me. Lots of things you said are true. For my part, I had to learn that social succes with a career etc. was not the ultimate thing in life (I come from a family in which a nice career is the 1st and the top achievement). I had to quit my PhD because severe depression and acute anxiety crises, tough my marks were good. My Psychiatrist then put me on a 1 year rest and prescribed me Paxil, then Effexor which I still take on a daily basis.

Now he made me understood that it was not necessary to kill myself because I might not be able to work again, especially in a competitive domain. It's hard to deal with this fact when I see all my former friends and collegues working in nice jobs, raising a normal family, etc. It's also hard to talk about my problems, people don't seem to care or understand what happened to me. Maybe that was because I never got hospitalized because of my mental health problems.

Well, in any case, it's quite nice to visit this site and to know I'm not the only 1 with depression and Borderline and all, and that we can live with this if we accept it and deal with it honestly.

I'll leave you for now with words from Edgar Allan Poe :

"From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were-I have not seen
As others saw-I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow ; I could not awaken
My hearth to joy at the same tone ;
And all I lov'd, I lov'd alone."

Thank you every 1 for your replies, I really appreciate it.

Have a nice day !

Starbuck


Born in 1963 of French mom and Canadian dad. Studied a lot (Majors in History, Theology, M.A. in Sociology). Jobless for now. Just been diagnosed Borderline.

I wonder where it will go from here... But I'll try nonetheless.