The only person I live with is my Dad. I can't go to him for help because when I have anxiety he yells at me and tells me I'm doing it for attention or faking it , but I'm not - I really can't help it . I don't want to be this way. I also wake up shaking!! Sometimes I'm not sure why, others I had nightmares that cause it.

I'm not medicated. Dad wants to get me medicated , but I honestly feel like that is avoiding the problem. & yes... I know what my fear is. See, I've always had panic attacks once in a whole , but after a boy in my class had a seizure next to me .. It got SO MUCH WORSE. Like.. It's hard for me to live normally , or spend time with my friends. Also, my parents got divorced and that has affected me pretty negatively.

I often TRY to right , but my mind slips around a lot . Thank you though for your post & though this really sucks .. I'm glad I can relate to someone because for months I thought it was just me. I've questioned my sanity sometimes .