I ws also really vulnerable, and in a sense I was not ready to admit to myself that I had made a sort of deal with a devil...you see, my t was not emotionally trustworthy and was very "inciting," in other words, he triggered me deliberately and waited for my response, which we DID work on, but the whole therapy was very re-traumatizing for me. without over-dwelling, my therapy was a descent for me, so coming out of it has been very healing -- yours sounds different. HOWEVER, I do know that for some time (this was very short compared to yours), all of my emotional energy went into therapy and I withdrew much of my caring and "heart-centered" energy from my "real life," and put it into "getting" and "understanding" someone who wasn't really available in any sense of the word.

It took a long time to dig out.

I didn't believe that someone could understand what I'd gone through, but this was more withdrawal and isolation on my part....lots of people, good therapists and good friends will be there for you if you stick your neck out...put yourself out there.

Give it a try...