Hi Bluekat....I'm so sorry about all that you're going through (sounds really tough), but I'm glad you've come here....and thank you for posting. I have a lot of empathy when you mention having no insurance, as it is the same with me. Does make things more difficult, to be sure. It's good to hear that you have an appointment at the clinic set up. Sometimes I have found that just knowing there are possibilities out there helps me make it through bad days. I hope this might be a possibility for you. One moment at a time, and if you possibly can, give yourself credit for every moment you make it through. (I know....that's easier said than done, but it's something to think about, anyway.) Sending warm wishes your way, and I hope you'll keep posting whenever you can use some understanding and support....we know how horrible the feelings can be, and we'll be here for you.....