Well we are also similar because my anxiety spike in may was because of a seizure. But i was the one who had the seizure.
I dont take meds most of the time but when my anxiety gets this way its extremely helpful. It eases your fears as you work through them mentally. Ive been on and off valium for 11 years, only take it a few weeks out of the year when im so anxious. Its not a way to run from problems but a way to help manage until you are able to on your own.
Waking up in a panic isnt managing. If youre so objected to the medications, there are herbal medications over the counter you can get. Ask your doctor, they should know