Doesn't matter if it's Bipolar, or a Depressive disorder, it's still not good to just stop meds. without talking with your pdoc.
I really do not understand why, you just won't give meds a try, it's no sin, or sign of weakness.
Do not deny yourself from opportunities to feel better,in time you may be gradually taken off of them, but it must be done gradually, and if it turns out you need med(s). again, it is not a bad thing.
Six years ago, I felt the way you do about meds. but I learned the hard way, and then learned to accept the fact, that following pdoc's treatment plan, improved the quality of my life, and now when I look back at how I balked about treatment (meds) and therapy, it was so foolish and imature, wasted time, I could of not wasted if I only had not been so bull headed.
Well, I guess some people have to find out the hard way,wasting precious time, till they accept the reality of having a disorder and how they can do something to improve their well being.
After being one of those, I wish I was able to help save those at that point of denial,resentment, and plain old bull headedness, from wasting time and just get help and stick with whatever plan the pdoc suggests.
I regret the time I had wasted, refusing help and meds.
But glad I got into a plan,which helped greatly, had I not, chances are I wouldn't be on this earth, typing this.
I wish you luck with whatever you choose, take care now.

DE