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((((bluegirl)))) I'm so sorry for what you are going through. I grew up with the same experiences in terms of being forced to eat food. I would even puke it up and my mom would force me to eat 'it'. I was told to go out an make friends and yet I had none because I was never allowed to leave the house. I was beaten every day in middle school if I didn't bring every book home (If I forgot one book I would get beaten,,,I had bad grades...no surprise I had low self esteem etc..) and I told a school friend I wanted to kill myself in a note (there was no internet or email back then :-) When my parents confronted me about the note I lied and said it was a joke. I didn't want to give them the satisfaction of them knowing they effected me that way.

When you are in school can you talk to the counselor about this? I didn't because I was afraid of what would happen to my family.



PS - be sure to log off of PC and it should erase the cookies from your cache. Delete your history... hopefully your parents don't have spyware on your computer.