Thank you..

Things are a bit different now.

Last wednesday i allowed all my friends to come and visit me, it was awkward at first, then it got better, they persuaded me to go out on Saturday night for our friends birthday.

On Saturday i was making such a consious effort not to drink to much that i ended up totally sober.

Robert on the other hand got so drunk he had to go home, then was so annoyed we were all having a good time with out him he DROVE HIS CAR back to town (he only passed his test a month ago) held up a queue of traffic while he was parked outside the club waiting for us to come out. I ran out and got in the car as did his boyfriend, we both shouted at him to drive, he got us home safely and didnt get caught thankfully, but i was furious, he had called us on the phone and demanded we got in the car because he didnt like waiting at home for us!
this behaviour is so unlike him!
anyway, after an hour he said to me i could either stay in his spare room or i had to leave as he was going to bed!!
all my other friends were still in the nightclub, luckily i got hold of Kerri and she came outside and we got a taxi home.
I'm not angry with Robert now, i just feel like our friendship is fighting a losing battle, maybe we should quit while we're ahead. He doesnt have time for me anymore, but refuses to let me go, and i feel like i cant live without him, een though i do every day.