For the first time, I told one of my teachers that I may be depressed - I'm amazed the words even came out of my mouth, but they did and he's willing to be flexible with me so I have a better chance of passing the class in a few weeks. My hands were shaking like crazy, I had to keep telling myself to not break down in front of him and I had trouble keeping my words straight, but for once, someone knows what's really going on with me and why I'm struggling in class. He mentioned the services available and thinks that they are covered by the health fees.
It's not depending on meds forever that makes me nervous, it's having to depend on them at all just to feel better. I just want to be me again, I just want to be normal again. Not taking medications just to take the edge off the pain.