The thing that really scares me about depression is how quickly my moods can change. It's like one minute I'm doing fine, and the next thing I know, I'm spiralling downward. The littlest thing can set me off. Then when I'm happy, its like I dont want to get too happy, bc the higher you go, the longer the fall. Its scary. Today was one of those roller-coaster rides. I was feeling fine this morning, I went to my session, and began to feel very down. It really hurt, and I just did not want to be here. Then this afternoon, things lightened up a bit. I got some things done at my work, and after I went to the public library (I'm a gigantic bookworm). And again, a slow dip back down. Then I started to read some books, and I slowly creeped back up again.

I have not been diagnosed as manic-depressive but my T and I are convinced that I am not on the right meds. I'm going to be getting a new shrink, or PDOC, which is really great. I hope we can figure out whats up, so I can start feeling better.