Familly can be very hard to deal with.

" I really think I should just crawl into a hole and stay there for the rest of eternity."

You see my friend, you have so much to give and share, you don't have to give it to your familly. I have put distance between me and my familly. What I have to give now, I don't give to them, I give to people like you who are not blind. To crawl into a hole will not help you. To chose another path will.

I do appreciate you!