I know how you feel, being lonely. I've been single for 2 years now, I haven't had even a possible partner pop up. I don't work because I find it too stressful and currently awaiting an outcome from SSD. I have OD'd in the past just to get attention because I was so lonely. I know the feeling all to well. You're not alone. I've often wondered if people would miss me if I was gone... Its not something I like to think about but sometimes I do. I have a hard time making friends because of the depression and bpd. Those friends that I do have aren't local, but they have stood by me when I implode, which is nice. I currently see my therapist once per week, and that's about all the social contact I get outside of my roommates. Even sometimes I can't stand to be around them too. Its a lose-lose battle in my opinion. I know how it hurts. I'm there.