I hear you, and it effin sucks...I don't want to relate to ppl on here...I keep testing and testing everyone and ppl are relating. It sucks. I want to be different than everyone here, I want to be free again. I should give myself a break, I only found out a lil over a month ago, of course all this knowledge is going to be overwhelming.

I notice everything now, I notice how much of a bit...ch I am to my kids and hubby. I can't help but feel guilt but that stupid guilt doesn't last long enough to change, can I change, will I change? All these questions that all of you can answer and do answer and I hate it!!!!

Sorry, this is nothing personal against any of you, I just wish I wasn't like you, I wish I wasn't me.