I'm sick of being in control of myself because I just want to be able to act without worrying about what other people think. I don't want to have to explain myself to the people I live with, at this point, they all think I'm dumb. I just want to be able to go and do something crazy without being held responcible. I'm just sick of having to explain my actions. I keep trying so hard to do the right thing and I can't seem to get that right, so I just want to go actually do something stupid. I've always wanted to do acid... Or mushrooms... Some psychadellic drug. I have no access or anywhere to start, so I wont. But I just wanna be crazy for a day.