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Originally Posted by LostAngel0616
I'm sick of being in control of myself because I just want to be able to act without worrying about what other people think. I don't want to have to explain myself to the people I live with, at this point, they all think I'm dumb. I just want to be able to go and do something crazy without being held responcible. I'm just sick of having to explain my actions. I keep trying so hard to do the right thing and I can't seem to get that right, so I just want to go actually do something stupid. I've always wanted to do acid... Or mushrooms... Some psychadellic drug. I have no access or anywhere to start, so I wont. But I just wanna be crazy for a day.
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Today, LostAngel0616, I'd love to write an email without exercising control or worrying about what
anyone thinks. I'd love to, and I recognize that. Today, I'm feeling a lot like you say you are--that "I keep trying so hard to do the right thing and I can't seem to get that right." But I know that's life, that's a roadblock, that's something
everyone faces at some point in life. What I need is a coping skill, not "to go actually do something stupid."
Because I'm having real trouble with that email, I am going to a meeting tomorrow & talking to my sponsor. Now if I'd gotten notz's invite, I woulda taken her up on that! Hey, you want crazy? Michigan to Atlanta for a burger ... even the fanciest?
CRA-ZEE!!