I'm losing it. I've been trying to write it out here for a while, and it's been really difficult to concentrate long enough to write, and when I can concentrate, I get bogged down by thoughts of how stupid I'm being. But I'm really pretty much on the verge of losing it. This is exactly how I felt before October last year, and I'm not sure I have the words to describe it. I feel ... distant? Like everything is really far away? Scared and helpless? The trigger this time seems to be a couple of really nasty fights with the boyfriend... in the last two nights. I'm just really wondering what to do. Going to see the T now. Just wanting some input, if anyone has any, about these moments where one feels like one is on the edge of breaking down?