Thanks canders and erinbear. I have to admit that I failed, but afterwards I did throw away the blade. I don't know why I didn't do it when I found it...I just put it back where I had found it and tried to 'ignore' it. Now just gota hang on and see my doc on monday. At least my nurse talked today of suggesting a change in meds, at least to help me sleep. AT LONG LAST!!! I have been asking for this from my doc for at least the last 3 visits. Ideally I would LOVE to reduce my meds but everytime it comes to my doc appt something else has happened and she won't do it, even though she wants to reduce them too. But thanks for the support. At least I have goten rid of 'it', and the urges too for now (yeah, too late but at least they've gone!).