Well PTSD is what can happen in the brain after someone experiences a trama. Trama therapy is designed so that therapists help their patients work through their tramas and also deal with the anxiety and PTSD symptoms that can be present.

So if you went to a therapist who specialized in working through "trama" you would also work through the bouts of anxiety and denial that you have been experiencing since your father died. It sounds to me like you never really dealt with that and what it did was make you "afraid" of becoming ill as well as not knowing what to do about how to deal with how final death is.

21 is young and at that age a death can have a profound effect and most that age simply do not have the life skills to know how to deal with it.

Some of the symtoms you are discribing sounds like you are experiencing a lot of anxiety which is something that people with PTSD experience a lot.

The only way you are going to really know is to really spend time in therapy with a good therapist. They are not going to truely "just know you" by being interviewed once or twice. And a therapist doesn't typically hand out a diagnosis of PTSD without really spending time with a patient.

If you choose to invest some time with a therapist that does specialize in trama therapy, it wont hurt you.

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