Hello!

My name is Mistie, I'm 23, and I suffer from depression. I know I do, I've been diagnosed with it before. Yet.. I'm not being treated. There is a lot of stuff in my background that is to blame. But I'm not going to go into that. I guess the only thing that needs to be stated is that I can't seem to find an out. I cry over stupid things, I get angry at myself for doing it and that drags me down further. I can't believe I've been with the same man for 2.5 years. He's a trooper and I know that he really loves me.

Thee thing I really wanted to ask you though.. Is how do I get help? I'm lost and have hit a brick wall. I work full time and my company offers insurance, but it's aweful. So I pay for my own insurance with Blue Cross Blue Sheild of Texas. Because it is an individual insurance they do not cover mental health. I don't want to switch insurance companies to the one my job offers because it is really that bad, even if it did cover mental health it wouldn't cover much of anything else.

I have looked into the plans here in Texas that are offered to help people and their mental health, but I make a couple hundred more a month than they will allow for coverage. I do not make enough money to cover my bills and go see a therapist.

What the hell do I do now?

It gets worse everyday and I feel as though I'm drowning.
I hate this.