I can understand how u feel being alone and how you feel in public. I've been with my feince for 10 years and i do just about everything by myself, with the kids. I've been dreaming of the day we can be like a normal family, but with his work schedule it doesnt happen. I am often lonely, and its hard being out in public when i look around and see everyone.
But i hope you have a good meal, eat lots for me :-) and hopefully when your relaxing your kitties can give ya some love, i know mine do