Yeah I relate big time, I want friends, people around me, never been in a relationship, but do eventually want a boyfriend. But for some reason I just can't connect with people, my own age or right around my own age. Yet i get along with adults older than me, always have. Always have had poor social skill ever since I could remember, my parents tried, I was in Girl scouts through 7th grade, basketball in 4th, 5th and 6th grade, and started band in 6th grade, did it through high school, and still do marching band going into my third year of college marching band, yet i always find myself in a corner all bymyself not able to talk to others, even small talk is hard. I went out for a sority, but I think my lack of social skills and maturity made me not get a bid (everyone else did). Everyone says I don't try or I just push them away, and yes in some ways they're right, but in others they don't know how it makes me feel to try to connect with others, when I really don't know how to. I don't even know why I can't carry on a conversation with others why I act the way i do, other than it is just the way iam. Everyone thinks Im weird, I don't ever want to go out or anywhere etc. Sometimes I just don't want to go anywhere, sometimes I do, and I do have social anxiety, but I don't think it's all of my problem though, I think there is more to it, idk but I hate it a lot of times.