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Glowiebird · Jul 04, 2012, 04:45 PM

So I haven't had a boyfriend in a year. The last time i did have one i had been in that relationship for three years. He had been with me through a lot ( my parents divorce, my anxiety, ect ) , but things were bad between us. We had a lot of unresolved problems because im not a fighter. I really dont have the mentality to argue anymore & i was sick of him picking fights.

Anyways, I've been dating & every time my date and I get serious & he asks me to be girlfriend... i refuse. I just can't do it. For some reason it always feels wrong.

Also when ever i involve myself sexually with a man i feel extremely guilty. See, I've been doing things backwards for a long time.. have sex, then date. i haven't had the strength to deny a man sex. i told myself that if i could.. i really cared about him.

Finally, i met a guy. He's a cop & lives two hours away from me. We've been dating for a little over a month. He tried to have sex with me once.. the moment was pretty heated, but then i told him no... That i wanted to wait & he was cool with it. This man gives me so much strength. I've laid naked with him & just cuddled him & talked. i WANT to be committed with him. My parents love him. Over all, he's just a great guy & i feel like we fit. I think for once in my life i actually have real feelings for him

A few days ago he told me that he just wanted to be friends & now im so confused. He told me right now he isnt ready for a relationship & he would be ready in maybe a year or two ( hes just so busy with work... being a police officer is stressful). he told me does like me a lot though... but what if he's just saying that so he doesnt hurt me? He told me he feels bad because he cant give me the attention i deserve.

So my question is this: Do i wait for him?? Or do i move on?? This is the first time ive actually cared about someone in a long time.

Also: Why have i been feeling guilty to involve myself with a man sexually & just in a general relationship.