I went on Monday morning for an MRI well unknown to me I was put into a totally closed machine and even though I had taken plenty of my meds to keep me relaxed as this was to take about two hours of time.
First off they offer me music right, okay on go the headphones then they slide me in and she says here is an emergency thing to push if something isn't right.
Well this had to have been a machine from back in the first days when I had one done as the noise was deafening even with the headphones on, which of course music was never heard at all. So I try to keep myself together, heck I have had so many of these done, but not like this one since my first.
Within twenty minutes I was getting a migraine from the noise that just echoed through my whole body. I am squeezing and squezzing this bulb, I am kicking my feet..... hmmm I am suppose to lay still, I think they went for coffee. I was in there about a half and hour, crying and finally after yelling my head off they seemed to realize something was wrong,,,,,,,, DUHHhhhh. I had to reschedule for next month, this is so going to upset my neuro but I just couldn't do it.
So besides just feeling bad about not going through with the whole thing, then I have the issue of kicking myself all over the place for being such a wimp.
I am so angry at myself.... Well anyhow got home after I was able to get calmed down by hubby a bit, took my imitrex and then went home and prompty slept most of day and into yesterday. Apparently my daugther had called and said they were all coming up on Thursday and staying until Saturday moring.... oh boy and my house is totally torn apart. I was redoing my computer room and we just got a different couch, and I have done no house cleaning in a week, on top of that there are things I just can't do without hubby and he works until I am unsure what time last night as I was asleep, when he came in. At 2:30 he was still up and I woke up and have been up dozing here and there since then. How do I get my house in order for four overnight guests, when My living room floor is overfilled with stuff. I am overwhelmed here with all that needs to be done and I have no energy to do and no hubby that will have time to even help me. So I am stuck looking at his cra... all over the bedroom and hallway and its way to heavy for me to move at all.. I am just sick.... he helps a friend last night when he knew I needed help here and fine I dont have a real problem with that it is just that he will be busy tonite also so again no real help..... Sorry just had ot get this off my chest as I am going absoulutely baananananannaanaaaasssssssss.... Any sound advice would be truly welcomed. I will probably just leave this page open all day so when I need to rest This is where I will seek my solace... Thanks if you read this far I don't mean to vent, but I just am overwhelmed and feel so totally like cra . on top of it.