Also when ever i involve myself sexually with a man i feel extremely guilty. See, I've been doing things backwards for a long time.. have sex, then date. i haven't had the strength to deny a man sex. i told myself that if i could.. i really cared about him.
^^ that's what the yellow said . And I haven't had standards for a long time .. I'm trying to be better. It's do hard to let go of him . I just care about him do much , but I know you are right . Thank you for your post . I really appreciate it .