alot goes on when getting involved with people...I think a bunch of stuff all the time and from every direction and especially when things get tricky and I just don't have the time or the 'know how' to process it all and so important information gets stored up inside somewhere.

...sure it would be much better to deal with this important stuff that relationships bring up when they happen but I don't know how so I simply don't and away things go like nothing happened and the others either don't know anything anyway or think I'm just insensitive...

but alas....and to my shame and demise it all comes out later when I am even least aware and the stuff I thought I had ignored so well emotionally assassinates whoever was involved in the first place...and in most cases the stuff I made rational decisions NEVER to bring up EVER.

...and out it comes foolish and clumsy and psychotic and now there is suddenly even more 'stuff' to supress and if I was incapable of processing the original problem then what hope have I got now! aaaaaaah!

...it's better I stay the hell away from people, it's not the best answer I'm sure but it's all I got.