Please talk about it. It will eventually get out. I was raped 20 years ago. I told NO ONE. Not my parents, pastor, teachers, or concelors. I thought I could ignore it away. I did for awhile. But saw things from time to time that reminded me of what happened. Empty parking lots (so thats where he got me & lost and took me to) mutiple other places. I really thought I could hide the rape. It ate away at my marriage, it comes out when I pass men at the store, when I get into an elevator with a man. Finially after 20 years I told my current T and now we are starting to deal with this. Don't drag it with you for 20 years. I'm not pressing charges, I don't want to, it's way to late for a rape kit, I don't want to tell any other people and there is no pressure to. I'm not going to confront this man, I don't have any interest in that. My T is not pushing me to do so. It is my story and I can tell it to who I'd like and do with what I'd like because it's mine and she's not pressuring me to do anything about it. I just wanted someone to know. I want to know how do I make it go away and keep it from affecting my life now. I'm hoping for a full recovery with minimal mental scars.