My concern for my children is less about what genes I would pass on, and more to do with how my behaviour and modelling would affect them. That has to be my biggest regret about where I am now - I can't take back how I have hurt them with my impulsive anger and reclusive tendencies. They need someone who can take the lead in developing their skills and a positive outlook on life. So long as my perceptions of people remain in such disarray, I know what I teach is tragically flawed and giving them a poor grounding for adult life.
I do everything I think I can to be the best dad for them. It is a strong motivator to overcome the negatives of Bipolar and SZA.

If I had known 20 years ago that I would be such a mess at a critical stage of their lives, I may have thought twice about having children.

Thankfully my wife has her head screwed on tight, and provides the strength I can't yet provide them.