Idk if this relates, but Im always told by others that I "ruin" their day, party, vacation etc. idk why it's not like my whatever the hell my condition is just magically stops once we hit a "certain" get together place etc. Makes me mad, cause I feel like I always mess things up, Im hated, no one wants me to be with them (even though thats not true) and they never let me hear the end of it either Hugs